Monday, March 31, 2008

Two Doors Down

A Story. you might get lost. but that all depends on how good you are at life.

Don't press this big red button

Sunday, March 30, 2008


It is official. We have reached BUN status. the hair is finally long enough to be updoed or i guess updone into a BUN. :)

There's something about the BUN that just puts your mind at ease.

If in fact you do not know how to make a bun in your own hair (which is ridiculous) then please for the sake of the world and your serenity. CLICK HERE

The Blogness Monster

The Blogness Monster
By Scott Glauser

I have been shown a world
Full of random pics text and links.
Where buttons open new windows
To places that might raise an eyebrow.
A new view on how a loved one thinks.
Where you find out that maybe
You aren't the only one trying to work out the kinks.
A picture that makes you smile
The following comment that makes you laugh.
A place of connection, all the while
Showing us we're all on our own path.

The Blogness monster takes its victims with ease
It reels you in slowly and then starts to tease
Before long you can't help but have a new mind set
you look at everthing differently and think. . .
Ya, I could post that on THE NET.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Chapperone or wingman?

From Jocelyn: are you a chapperone or a wingman?

now i'll tell you the story of what happend after i got off the computer.

So there i was back in the double queen hotel extravaganza. just a little nick name for the hotel room. . . anyway so i get back and am of course by my self. i draw a bath. i know a little gay, but so necessary. the hot bath was really relaxing. so i go read for a bit. i get in about one chapter before the shutters get heavy. so i nod off. and the next thing i wake up to is elton and greg coming back. they tell me their story of how they lost david and greg. and then i went back to sleep. the next time i woke up i saw greg and david barn and who i thought was jesse but really who i thought was jesse wasn't. and who i thought was david barn was jesse. so there's jesse on one side greg in the middle and mystery guest on the other side. at the time i did not know it was a mystery guest i'm still in jesse mode. and the last thing i think before i go to sleep was i hope he doesn't fall off the bed, cause he's pretty close to the edge. so i go back to sleep. elton to my left. the next time i wake up its to a very loud whack and then a thud shortly followed. so all of us hear this concussion happening. and pop up in bed, saying in no uncertain terms, "what the hell"? and the next thing i think after "ouch" was "wow jesse is wearing alot of jewelry" hahaha then we ask greg what happend and why there's a girl in our room. and where the hell is david? who was MIA at the moment. . . i'm gonna leave you all with a cliff hanger. if you wanna hear the dirty details of the rest of the story then let me know. . .involving elton. :) yes. he got some.

Thursday, March 13, 2008


tonight we drink to youth and holding fast a truth. don't wanna lose what i has as a boy. sometimes when i'm alone i wonder is there a spell that i am under that helps me to see the real meeeeeee... love hurts. . . but sometimes its a good hurt and i feel like i could flyyyyyy.
these are just a few words from an incubus song. and it really is a good hurt.

so i'm in mexico. i really miss my beux or boo however you spell it but i'm gonna say i miss jocelyn. :( its beautiful down here the beach sunsets are making me miss her even more. i just wanna cuddle! damn. is there any such thing a cyber cuddling? it wouldn't be as good though. only cause she is sooo good at cuddling. I think she might have a degree in it or she's at least certified.

I stayed home tonight. in the hotel. while my buddies go roll the dice of . . . i would say love but we all know spring break in mexico isnt about the love. its about sexual frustration. so they're going to roll the dice of the ONS. thats one night stand for you socially incoherant peeps. as for me i'm going to go back to the room and read and then sleep until the boys get back from doing the V.D. . . not venerial disease but V.D. stands for the vertical dry. Khaki kissing on the dance floor. that could be a whole other blog though.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

I might share my world.

I figure i should share my world with the world. :) this paragraph is something i wrote a while ago. but i like it. it shows me where I was a year ago. which seems like ages ago. literally ages. i feel like i'm four years older than i was a year ago. is that possible? YES. anything is possible.

Who are you? I don't know. I don't know who I am. Not really. I don't think anyone really knows. If we really knew then it would probably be too much for us to handle. I know a little. I know that is why I am here. I'm here to find the I am of myself, and remember what and who I am. But also become what i once was. I remember things from time to time. things I shouldn't normally remember but I have experienced them for what seems like in another lifetime but really it was only a moment ago. I have these things inside me and they will never leave. I am thankful for that. I love new experiences and life is definitely full of them. I used to be a person who was so afraid of the future that i would think about it constantly and worry what i would become and who i would be. I wished for talents and security. I have received all that i have needed and a lot that i have asked for. I believe that coincidences aren't really what they seem. they are more of a choice that you have already made. then you go through it to understand why you made that choice. Life is Life. and Love is close to the same story. Love is inside of you. either you are love or you don't choose love. I love all of you with a passion. I learn constantly always looking and mostly listening. I am who I am . Be still and know that I am. Be still and know. Be still. BE